The one thing I really remember from Katie's pregnancy is how hard this trimester can be. Almost all the time I'm wondering: is that something to worry about? Is that a contraction? Do I call the doctor? Do I go to the hospital? Do I ignore it? It all becomes very very frustrating and overwhelming - especially if you deal with pre-term labor.
I feel like I'm a bit caught in the middle right now between taking care of Katie and taking care of my baby. Last night, I had a lot of contractions over about an hour and a half. They were strong, they were painful, and they were regular and getting closer. After starting out at 7 minutes apart, they eventually made their way down to 2 minutes before I finally took a pill. The pill stopped them pretty quickly, so that's good. Now what? The doctor had said to let her know if something changed - they got stronger, more regular, etc.;however, Brian was at that appointment with me. I interpreted that as, the next day during regular hours, update me. He interpreted it as, at your next appointment, just let me know.
On top of that frustration (which we argued severely about), there's the issue of the FFT. If I do call, it's likely that I would have to go in for the FFT and it sounds like that test has a really high likelihood of a false positive. In fact, everything I'm reading on it says it's far better at predicting who will not give birth in the next two weeks than predicting who will. Don't get me wrong, it would be awesome to get a negative and know I'm pretty well free and clear for two week, but what if that positive shows up? Then I'm on bed rest. I don't have enough sick time to cover the rest of the semester and I wouldn't be able to do anything with Katie - no Halloween, no pumpkin farm, no dance lessons, no going to the park - nothing. How do I choose between making sure Jellybean is ok and making sure Katie still has a mom who can do things with her for the next six weeks?
Obviously, the contractions stopped, which is good; however, what if they started any dilation or changes? Once dilation starts, the chance of your water breaking increases - and that's what cause Katie to come early.
So that's where I am right now. Do I call or not? Do I chance a positive and bed rest? I don't know. I just don't know.