Been a while

But, thankfully, there hasn't been too much to report at this point.

Things are going well overall. I have been having more than a little trouble with this extreme heat wave. Just a couple of minutes out and about and I am zapped and done for the day, which makes it very difficult to keep up with Katie. I have been having a lot of pink and brown spotting lately which, again, could be nothing or could be not so good. It's not necessarily getting heavier, but it's not easing up either. The doctor had told me at the last appointment that the Lovenox can be the culprit because it can make the cervix bleed. Did you ever stop to think about how many times a day your cervix bumps against something - the back of your pelvis, the walls of your vagina, etc? I guess I always assumed that was a pretty stationary part of my body...clearly, I was mistaken and it's a hoppin' and jumpin' around in there every time I move. Who knew? In any case, any time it bumps, that can cause the cervix to bleed due to the Lovenox - it's like a million little cuts and bruises. I'm kinda feeling badly for the poor girl - it's not time for labor and delivery yet and she's already getting the crap beat out of her...

Oh, and please forgive the personification of the cervix. When I was in grad school, I used to go over to the student health center for my yearly exams and somehow always ended up with a woman I call the "cervix whisperer." During the entire exam, she would speak to my cervix. Not me - my cervix. And she'd say the weirdest stuff..."Oh, she's a shy girl...I just can't quite get ahold of her with my speculum;" "She just danced away from me..." "You're looking good little girl." Needless to say, it was really really creepy and I was always VERY happy I didn't have to go back there for a whole year. That's just wrong on so many levels...but some habits die hard, and I keep thinking of her as a her since then.

So, yeah - some bleeding. It's probably because of the heat and the fact that I've been lifting Katie too much. I honestly need to stop and take better care of myself, but I don't think until it's too late. You would think that after everything we've been through that I would be far more conscientious about this, but I guess I'm not that smart.

Jellybean is moving and shaking all the time now. I'm pretty sure she has her own Olympic size swimming pool or full gymnasium in there because she is doing forward rolls and all kinds of weird things in there. I'm very very happy with this development as I no longer worry all day about whether she is ok in there. She usually gives me some good reassurance within a couple of hours, and I'm very thankful for that. I'm also thankful to be moving into week 21. Each week that we go past 20 is another chance we have of bringing home our beautiful baby girl. We've started working on the room and getting our gear together, but I'm afraid of jinxing anything...I don't think I'll feel comfortable until she shows up perfect and healthy at 38 weeks.

Anyway, thanks for the good thoughts and your feedback. It's so wonderful to have a supportive community who doesn't mind hearing about my cervix :)